I don't understand how this is even happening. I am so scared for the future. Dr. Smith was supposed to call me a week and two days ago, I have still not heard from him. Today I talked to one of the receptionists who had talked to him about me. She said that he was still reviewing my case and trying to decide the next case. He talked to Dr. Motzomoto on Tuesday about botox, and I think that if they were going to do botox they would have already made the appointments. I think that there is a very strong possibility that he will call and say that there is nothing he can do. I cant live this life. I cant be this girl... this woman. I want so much more from this life. I feel so limited, so stuck in this pain, stuck in this body, stuck in hell. How does anyone live like this, how can this be me? I am 19 and my life is that of a decrepit 80 year old. I want so much more...
Forever Searching,
Zenaithful Girl
