I went to toy story three last night with a bunch of highschool friends. I felt really out of place with all of them but one. I guess I shouldn't have expected more because by the end of highschool year they weren't really my friends, not close ones atleast. Atleast I had Allison S. there... she is a true friend to me. She is not really like me at all, but I love her. She was always and probably will always be there for me. I miss her sooooo much. I am going to try to reconect with her this summer. My college friends are great and I love them. I really wish that they were here this summer... I miss them. But if I make an effort I think that having Allison will be great.
My dad has really been trying lately. He calls me all the time to make sure that I am okay. I am really hoping that me opening up to him about dystonia and what I am going through will help our relationship. I am also facebook talking with Pete right now, which is ackward but good. I hope that we can reconnect too. My mom and I are still kind of tense. I just feel like she is so far away from me, even though she is right here. She doesn't want to hear about me, I mean really hear. So I am having to find other people to rely on, maby that is a good thing, but it is hard for me to feel like I am losing her.
Otherwise I am just waiting to go to mayo. I leave on tuesday morning and will be spending the rest of the week up there, and then probably going back the week after that. I cant wait to go, the dystonia has not been good, and I am ready to try something new to help it.
Forever Searching,
Zenaithful Girl
